Yest night, was one of the most loneliest night i ever had. Now that i already have no one to sleep with me, no one to chat to sleep, but yest night, i even have no one to feel to sleep.
Yest is the day i have conflict with my bf,and that conflict caused a break off in our relationship. We agree to break... :'(
The worst thing of this break off, is that it happen in peace situation. I wish we could fight over, scream at each other, then we say the word 'break' out of rage! cz then we can say that that is a rush decision bcz people usually dont mean waht they say when they were angry. But the worst is it wasn't like that. Reason why im so afraid of this is bcz peacefully break means it is not decision we both made out of anger, but is decision from a conscious mind.
All in all, i think He deserve a better inner quality person to be his gf. I am just a girl who play with emotions everyday, whom hasn't done any wonders in his life but keep on expect to get from him.
Is time to decide what kind of person u wana be with. If u love this person for her looks and kindness instead of really love her for who she is, or i shd say u dont know how to 欣赏 whatever she does..u had basically feel she is hopeless..then it is wise that u break away from her..bcz this kinda person really wont do u any good but make you complaint and give her lecture on how to live a more 'less-hopeless' or 'meaningful life' that u imagine she will turn to be...
Im not angry, im hopelessly sad and lost. Bcz even the closest person cant see the good in me. The person who tells me that he love me everyday, is unable to tolerate my weakness. From your voice, i knew i had disappoint u. From your eyes, couldn't see the same admiring interest and that kind of passion hen u have in your eyes when look at me 1,1/2 year ago..
Dear pls think thro this seriously..if im not the girl u want..if u think im worthless person..or im weak..i wil tell u u deserve a better person..
